some times you gotta say what the fuck

I was going to publish a video from the band I went to see the other night.  Show was so awesome.  I think I saw a couple having sex while standing.  Not sure if it was the music that did it,  but they must have been way into it. 
On another note, I wanted all my friends there.  To just kick it and rock out.  This was supposed to be the band I saw the other night but I saw this on youtube instead.  Oh well.  Laughing rather than being emo.

Hug the close ones

Susan Spitz was my first love. I was crazy about her and she just wanted to be friends for like the first year. Eventually I was persuasive enough, we ran around after school and youth group, and I well remember posing for prom night pictures while Maggot and Harsh Lipton clowned us in the driveway. We saw Fishbone together. And went camping for the first time. She warmed the chambers of the hearts of more than one EV'er, that's a fact. We stayed close as our lives took different turns, and she stayed up in Virginia after college.

She lived in recent years with a really tough, debilitating pain from an accident that left her arm paralyzed. She took her life Friday night. I don't know how to imagine her not around. We stayed in touch all these years, but sometimes the pauses got too long. I hate that I hadn't called her more recently, or sent a note. Hard as we try, it's tough to avoid the regrets.

So here is to the hurt we can't always see. She was one of the all time greats. It will be hard to figure out how to miss her. I loved her about as deeply as a person can. Do you ever really get over that? Why would you want to?

There are some more pictures over here.